i've been meaning to do an actual update, but i've just been too lazy. & i've actually had an entry to be posted up, but then it all got deleted. & since i am currently bored, i guess i shall update...
SCHOOL
i can actually say i look forward to receiving my progress report haha. i finally got to raise up my grade in american gov't & physics. so knowing that, i'm pretty sure my report card will consist of grades no lower than a C. 
FRIENDS
as you grow older, you realize who your "true" friends are. & i may say that i know which one of my friends will stay by my side through whatever happens & the ones that won't, but i still never know for sure becos things can change unexpectedly whether we like it or not. i've met a lot of pretty amazing people the past couple of years & some have even played an important part in my life. but people grow apart as time passes by & you never know if your "best friend" is going to still be that "best friend of yours" till the end. i've noticed that i don't really classify anybody as "my best friend" anymore. i remember back in grammar school when i had "best friends"...& now their all gone, i've lost touch with them. but anyways...my point is that if you're truly going to be my friend then make an effort to keep in touch w/ me & chill w/ me once in awhile you know ? other than that..i appreciate all the things you all have done for me.
[ too lazy to do a relationship topic ]
FAMILY
as some of you know, my grandma had passed away about more than a year ago [ about 4 days after my 15th bday ] & lately i've found myself reminiscing about her. i'm pretty sure it was last wednesday when my 3rd & 8th per. class's topic was about "death". i remember having tears go down my cheeks during class while the topic was being discussed & on the ride home..2 of my friends were talking about death as well & from there i had continued to feel bad again. i feel bad cos of the way i treated her. nobody really knows how bad i've treated my grandma except for prolly my girls back from lyon. i think i've yelled @ her practically everyday. i've said a lot of mean things towards her & now i know that what she did and said was just for my own good, she was just caring for me. she practically raised me more than my own parents did, due to the fact that my parents we're barely home becos of work just to support us. i can still remember the day she passed. i went to her & i wanted to say i'm sorry for everything i've put her through...but no words could come out...instead i just broke down crying & my uncle told me that it was okay cos he said that she knows that i love her. i know that before i said i wouldn't miss her when she'd be gone...but i do & i'm really sorry for everything i've done. thanks for taking care of us all these years. <3
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